Bahhh Bahhh black sheep...
The few that claim to know me should all agree that I am infrequent at best with keeping "in-touch" with anyone. If I have a question of someone I ask it, otherwise I don't see the need to talk. I can't seem to wrap my head around the whole "small-talk" thing. My lack of vision is probably why I can sit in a bar and not say a damn word which is in stark contrast to the world around me that can't seem to listen.
I spent the last few minutes going over a few peoples blogs that I know. I guess technically they are my siblings if you want to be a dick about it. I always start at Jack's site since he seems to keep links to the other siblings sites on his page and not because, like me, he ever updates his blog.
I can't look at James's Blog without thinking how much of a FUCKING DOLT he is. I just today saw that Jordan has a website but there isn't anything there which is contrary to his whole massive being.
John's site has always been amusing too me. His site is actually the reason I even went looking at blogs today. I happened to be driving an hour or so west of Casper to work on a couple circuits out in the middle of nowhere when I got to thinking that he should be getting married sometime soon. Turns out he got married Friday. I'm indifferent to the whole thing. I have been to one siblings wedding and that was simply because I didn't think I had a choice in the matter at the time. One in five weddings... I'm doing pretty good! Let me qualify that though. I was raised Mormon, shocking I know! Likewise my siblings were raise in the same manner. So in actuality, I have been to one reception out of five since a heathen like myself can't actually attend the wedding ceremony. What is the point of inviting someone to a reception after the fact? So, I have missed 5 out of 5 weddings and I couldn't be happier.
I'm sure I sound like a complete ass hole and I just can't seem to care about it. Biologically you can't choose your family, that is unless you adopt, but I like to think I can defy that. I have no relationship with any of my siblings save Jack. Memories growing up are marred by the family hostage situations where 10 people get stuffed into a van and go on "vacation". I believe all that togetherness time more than compensates for me never having anything to do with the majority of those people.
This brings me to where I think I was going... I'm happy for John and his now wife Erin. Happy in the same sense that I am happy for people I don't know getting married. I'm not about to miraculously change and try to develop a relationship so that I can get to know this new person that hasn't entered my life. As far as my siblings go, I am a figment of their collective imagination. Anyone who hasn't met me should plan on not meeting me.
Think that is all I had... I'm sure I'll come up with something else to post at some point but most likely nothing until then.